Archive for the ‘Confessions’ Category

I have sinned against You, Lord. I have not read my Bible, I do not go to Church, I lay down to sleep rarely ever remembering to pray and give thanks for another day of life, and I have allowed the flame in my heart almost go out.

Oh my Lord, I repent of these sins. Please Lord, take me by the hand and lead me back to You. I heard myself thinking about how ‘I will’ fix this, and I heard and knew that I was the one who ‘willed’ me into this shameful place. I do not believe I can do this by my will. I need You, oh Lord. Please hear my plea.

I have become so busy there is no room or time for You. I always believed You would never leave me. If I were to read in Revelations about the Church of Ephasus, You told them to remember their first love. This is in the beginning of the second chapter. I know this because it is a chapter I keep having to come to everytime. Why?!?

What is wrong with me, Lord? I know that I am human, but why is it always the same sin? It is as if I do not love You, but I do. I want to. What is wrong with me?

Whatever the problem may be, I turn my life over to You once more. I should do this everyday, but I have been forgetting to do this too.

Remember one of my favorite songs, Lord? Did you think to pray! I will write it so I can see it everytime I look here.

Refrain:Oh, how praying rests the weary! Prayer will change the night to day; So, when life seems dark and dreary, Don’t forget to pray.

1. Ere you left your room this morning, Did you think to pray? In the name of Christ, our Saviour, Did you sue for loving favor, as a shield today?

2. When you met with great temptation, Did you think to pray? By His dying love and merit Did you claim the Holy Spirit As your Guide and Stay?

3. When your heart was filled with anger, Did you think to pray? Did you plead for grace, my brother, That you might forgive another Who had crossed your way?

4. When soar trials came upon you, Did you think to pray? When your soul was bowed in sorrow, Balm of Gilead did you borrow At the gates today?

I feel better already. I am very sorry, Lord. I don’t write here everyday as I should. I feel so all alone. I have no one to pray with, I can’t get out of this apartment, and I have asked for Bible study partners. People have their own lives to live, and I don’t hold that against them. I guess it will be You and me for a while, eh? I just don’t want to get it wrong. That is what scares me the most.

When I left that cult, it threw me for a bigger loop than I realized. I want to know what was originally said, not what man says it said. I never want to be brainwashed again. Yes, that is my fear. I don’t even trust myself…Have a nice day.

In Jesus’ precious name I pray, Amen.

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Dear Heavenly Father,

Please forgive my behavior for the past couple of days. I have cursed, and I have blamed others. I am just as guilty as the others I have accused of doing nothing for the people in Darfur, Sudan and Iran.

I have been praying for the people of Darfur to receive help to stop the genocide, but I have run out of ideas as to how to save them. My heart weights about 500 tons.

I also am angry at Britain for the way they are caving into Iran. Do they and President Bush not understand that they are sending mixed messages to the pro-democracy Iranian people who are stuck in that hell? Please God. Help them. Save them. Free them. All of them. I cannot, I have failed.

But I shall continue to pray for all the people who have no voice, and I will continue to write for them so that they do not go unheard. If only the people would read about these beautiful souls!

Lord, please guide their eyes, convict their hearts (and mine) so they will read, and then grant us some answers so that we may do Your will. I love You, God. Thank You for such a beautiful life. In Jesus’ precious name I pray.


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By Carrie Underwood:

Music Video:JESUS, TAKE THE WHEEL (by Carrie Underwood)

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How are you? Are you having a bad day? Do you feel the need to complain? Has your boss been getting on your nerves at work? Are they taking too long with your food order?

I have an e-mail I would like share with you,  and then tell me how you feel:

Dear Rosemary,

I’ve just returned from a trip to meet survivors of the Darfur genocide at refugee camps in Chad. What I saw horrified and saddened me, but it also inspired me.

Accompanied by acclaimed actress Mia Farrow, I traveled to the region to learn about the lives of those displaced by the violence, to tell them that the world will not forget them, and to gather their stories to share with you.

We’ve posted photos and documentary film footage from the trip on our web site – click here now to view them.

In the Gaga camp, we met refugees who had just arrived after a ten-day walk from Darfur and were too shocked to speak in anything other than three- or four-word sentences.

At the Habile camp, we met the village chief of Louboutigue whose 300-person community was still waiting for grain rations eight days after their homes were burned and their food supply looted.

In the Goz Beida hospital, we met three men whose eyes were gouged out simply for being on their own land – land that someone else wanted.

In the Djabal camp, we met a woman who showed us a terrible wound on her back, caused by a bullet that had first killed the daughter she had been carrying as she tried to escape an attack by the Janjaweed.

And yet all the people we met believed that the world community would end the violence and allow them to recover their lives and return to their homes.

We met real people struggling to get through each day, grinding grain, and taking care of children. The children wanted to meet us and play with us. The adults had smiles for us. Most of all, they wanted us to tell the world that they were waiting to go home.

We must not let them down.

Upon our return, Mia Farrow and I held a briefing with media in Washington to share our experiences along with photos and video footage from Chad. The briefing and footage were also distributed by satellite to international media outlets to tell the stories of the people we met.

Please click here to visit our web site to see photos and film footage from our trip and the press briefing. Then share these stories in your communities so the people of Darfur can go home.

Through my work I have met many people like you who are standing up to fight genocide.

It was my deepest honor to represent you, and the hundreds of thousands of courageous people like you across America, to tell the people of Darfur, face to face, that we will continue to speak for them.

I ask you to please forward this email on to your friends and family so they can join the effort.

To make a donation to allow us to continue our work, please click here.

Thank you again for your continued support and encouragement.

Best regards,David Rubenstein
Save Darfur Coalition

I do not want anyone to feel guilt. If it is not in your heart to do anything for these  people who are the least of these, please, do not bother. But when you stand before Christ, do not wonder why He asks, “Why did not help the least of these? Why did you not feed nor clothe Me?”

I hope you recognize how blessed you truly are. Have a nice day.

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Our Father Who Art In Heaven

Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank You so much for this very day of life. The war is not close yet, and I thank You for Your protection.

I repent for my sin of not knowing the answer to a person seeking Your face, seeking the truth. I did not know because I have not been reading Your word. I have lost my salt.

Dear Lord, please restore me unto You. I beg Your forgiveness. How can I be salt and light when I have none? Lord, please heal me.

You are the Almighty, the Great Counselor, my Shepherd, my shield in times of trials and danger. You can lift me up and restore me unto Yourself, because You are also merciful and full of grace.

I love You so much, Lord. It is truly You for whom I choose to live. Help me to be a better servant.

Thank You, O my Lord. In Jesus’ precious name I pray. Amen.

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A Blessing

A couple of days ago, I was stunned by a piece of mail I received. It was by my Pastor from over 2 years ago!

See, I had stopped going for a while, because I had fallen ill. Then, there was no follow-up. No one missed me. No one even knew I was gone!

Well! You can only imagine how that made me feel. I am home-bound, and no one cared. This is before my blogs. I thought I would just wait around for God to declare, "Okay, you have suffered enough. Come home!"

This obviously did not happen. Instead, what did happen, is the Pastor of my Church made an appeal to me to return to Church.

In case you are wondering what my answer to him is, it is, "YES!" I have stopped feeling sorry for myself. Someone has remembered me, and they care that I do not go to hell. 😉

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Why I Chose Anonymity

“For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16 NIV


When I decided to start this site, I wasn’t quite sure which direction I would be going. All I knew was that I was so caught up with the blogosphere, I was losing touch with God.

This could not stand. If I were to give that much of myself to a machine and neglect my spiritual walk, then I would be worshipping the machine and not God. It wouldn’t matter how many prayers I said, it would not do.

I was wrong, and God, I am sorry.

Many people ‘know’ me in the blogosphere, and I wanted the freedom to show my weaknesses without having them used against me. It has been done before, and I just wanted to be careful.

Also, I have a reputation as a citizen jounalist (at least in my mind, lol), and I do not like the way people are judging Christians.

It amazes me how people without faith are so easy and quick to recite Luke 6:37-42, yet they are so quick to judge you as soon as you step one inch off the path.

Luke 6:37 is where is states: (paraphrased) do not judge others, but if you do you will be judged by that same measure.

I do not mind being corrected in love, not at all. I may not like it, but I would not be human if I did! lol. I still need the fellowship of other Christians, as we all do. I just don’t need nor want the fellowship with atheists (oxymoron; you cannot have fellowship, for what does the light have in common with the dark?) telling me how I am supposed to live.

I ran into that situation before, and it took all I had to politely ignore him. I am weak when it comes to anger. Too weak.

So why did I want to remain anonymous? I didn’t want anyone to judge me on my past performances. lol. I truly want to read the Bible, but mine is in too small of a print. I bought one in large print, and I will never (maybe) shop at that store again! Large print my behind.

That left me not studying the Word of God. I can no longer live my life this way.

This is why I am writing the Bible. This is also a place where I shall come to pray, confess, rejoice, cry, share, comfort, grow, and live. Yes, this is going to be a very good year, God willing.

Everyone have a wonderfully blessed day.

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Good morning. I have just come from Church. It was a very good service. Our Pastor spoke of Paul’s resolve toward the end of his life, and he was resolved to look forward-not backward.

This was very refreshing for me, for I have been so busy blogging about everything and everyone else that I have lost my way. I have put God in a box on the shelf, and I take the box down when it’s time to pray only to put Him right back away.

I am resolving to find a Bible with LARGE primt! I have not been reading my Bible, because it is too difficult to see those tiny letters. Aha! Is this true? I read the tiny letters on the blogospher when I need to get the resources for an article!

Alas, I have sinned. I have lied to myself. I convinced myself that I was doing good works by writing about the horrible conditions of some of our other brothers and sisters. This is not a bad thing to do, but it is when I do this before praying about it, reading the Bible, and seeking the Kingdom of God.

I repent of this sin. I will write here every morning first, before I go about my day. I understand the world will not collapse if I don’t answer that e-mail, write that story, or read that breaking news if I do not rush to it. That is what I have been doing all year.

Last year I resolved to write at least once a day in my site. I have accomplished this. I pray, Dear God, help me to keep this resolution. This one is so much more important.

Thank you for stopping by. I pray you may have found a little something to help you. I will try to share my spiritual walk with you in the hopes that you may find hope. God bless you, and have a nice day.

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